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Writing and Poetry A Eulogy To This Life You wake weeping to the light and sounds of a new day Somewhere you've gotten lost along the stormy way Troubles seem to roll of all the others back's, come what may You try to ask God for help, but you know you've no say. For years you stay strong, always having faced your fear Then you realise you have lost all that you held dear All the pain and anguish to your heart it did sear And the masque you wear then becomes sheer. Looking to the four corners, you choose which way to go But in the end, all paths lead you back to the one you know The hunter stands, armed, waiting to shoot this doe Clinging to life, you turn to run and hope that hunter's slow. Everywhere you turn that angry hunter is there Sometimes, fearlessly, you stop, look, and stare Looking into those cold and murderous eyes that just don't care Running and hiding it is your life you hope he will spare. At the end, the hunter, seeing you, fires off one round You know your life's in danger, you heard the sound The bullets pierces the flesh and you drop to the ground You hope death finds you quickly, so the spirits no longer bound. Even though I'd had hopes to one day be your wife The hunter began to clean me with his uncaring knife I can't take all this pain, I beg him to end my life For not another day do I want to live through this strife. Perhaps one day I'll meet you on the other side For now though, it's on angels wings I do ride Now I don't have to live in fear; I don't have to run and hide Whoever said that life is grand, well, they lied. Diablerie's Chair Death has come for me, my love; The darkness and emptiness awaits. Who can say no to the fates; As they open up the shadowy gates, With wing'd demons peering from above. In the darkness beyond I see some trees, Snow's falling and shrouding all life; A frozen icicle shaped like a knife Falls, piercing the flesh of your wife Through the heart, forever to freeze. I stand in one place hoping to feel, What once I felt so warmly, your heart; But now my soul's been taken apart And mantled, a display for the black art That once I dabbled, the devil's deal. Shrieking noises resound from within As it rips apart my tormented soul. Looking down I see a cavernous hole; Though my evil deeds the demons extol, Tis God's payment for my treacherous sin. No light nor love will be admitted, And the cold is more than I can endure; Remunerations pain, there's no cure; Eternities suffering they wish to ensure, So in hell's where my souls forever committed. I stand at the foot of the abysmal hollow; I'm wanting the torture I feel to end. Jumping without thought, it's my soul to send To the bottom of this cavern, I choose to rend My soul from the evils that now are soon to follow. There is no escape from my evil deeds, As now, I feel all that in my past I've done; All the anguish and torment, sparing none, They cast upon me, and now they've won, For now they've planted their wicked seeds. Everything that once was me, is no more; I've found a home in the heart of a serpent, For long last, I'd found the heart absent, Void of all pain and sorrow, only allicient My evil ways to it's own bloody core. It's no longer my will keeping me there; They've captured all that I've felt, cornered in guilt, Voluntarily I allow the blossoms of my heart to wilt In this void and wintry hell that they've built, As I take my seat on the diablerie chair. Giving Up The tumultuous storms are passing through my soul, Dark foreboding clouds are hanging over my head; A razor cuts through me creating an abysmal hole, One that could never be filled, I'm the walking dead. **** this world that's only brought me misery and pain, There's nowhere left to turn in this hell that's been created; All emotions have to be flushed down that spiritual drain, Hoping to lighten this heart that's been heavily weighted. Time's moving so slow that one might think it's stood still, I can't move from the past and into what's to be the 'now;' Everything is so ****** up and I've no longer got a will, I wish I could change everyone's heart, but I don't know how. Think that I'm destined to remain forever in this isolation, Never finding peace within, living in perpetual damnation, I am searching my eternal soul in fervent desperation, For it's the only way to remove me from this baneful situation. The light that shone has ceased to flourish in my life, Leaving only a sense of dread that cannot be shed, Now the insufferable pain is nothing but a searing knife, Cutting away my happiness until all that I love is dead. Demons are standing at the gates to this intolerable hell They welcome me into this wicked den of pain and fear; My bare feet walk upon the fires as I enter the barred cell, Locking the door behind me, and I accept this without a tear. Can I suffer through all this agonizing pain and torment? Will I be able to persevere through the suffering felt this night? Is it the loss of my eternal soul that I'm forever to lament? Will I ever find it within myself to stand and put up a fight? God has abandoned me and does not hear my plea, So now I see that there's no other way for me; I'm giving up my life, so that I can be eternally free, Slashing my wrists, my blood soaks the mighty oak tree. Falling Walls The greyish stone mass that was erected, Looked stronger than any fortress ever seen; Now a blanket covers it, painted all in green, One would say that it has been neglected. The stones began to crumble into powdery ash, Bound together only by the tight woven moss; 'Requiescat In Pace', engraved in stone for it's loss, And now is nothing more than a mere storm sash. The storms are infrequent, but are violent still, Protection is needed, so I stand within the walls Meandering through the forts colossal halls, Hoping that it's not me the storm is going to kill. The wind and the rain have battered the stones, I see these wide apertures beginning to form As they cannot hold up to the puissant storm, I feel the chill pierce straight through my bones. Fervently I sought a thing to bar the iniquitous flood, But the Gods deemed me fit for a daunting task; My eyes cannot face this evil adorned with a mask, So I slash my wrists, hoping to drain all my blood. Wandering Down These Winding Roads Wandering down these winding roads Tastes of spring, flowers and nodes Scrolling hills as far as the eye can see Winds gently blowing....by and through me. Dancing with arms extended, hands opened wide, A shadow and a reflection are by my side The river that flows across the land Steadfastly beside me, holding my hand. A calming and cleansing feeling it be Waiting to find that Mighty Oak Tree. From the Earths womb the Tree bore fruits The leaves that adorned it created it's suit. Beneath the tree, sitting silent and still Beats the heart of a man who breaks my will. As I draw near, our eyes, they meet And a story there is told complete. He stands as he looks over my way Gesturing with hands, come hither and stay. I glided over, our eyes never parted We sat down together, and that's how it started. Forever Love Love and light to my soul you bring Touching my heart, making it sing This song from my heart melodic and real Sings to yours so that you may feel. My heart and soul are no longer my own My heart beats for one and begs you come My love is my life, and my life is you The flames of desire, within, burning true. Your love caresses and touches my soul Taking it to heights never before told Your force and your essence are breathed into me Experiencing pleasures, my passions' set free. Night skies, the moon, the stars, supposed bliss But what I yearn for most is simple, your kiss With lips sweeter than honey, soft as the dew Eternal love springs forth from me and into you. Never shall our love part, go separate ways For this I vow, I'll love you till the end of days There is no love greater, more divine, or true Than this love I shall have forever in you. As Sure As The Sun Rises As sure as the sun rises and as sure as the sun sets This love that I've been given is as good as it gets. This light holds my hand and shows me a new way Bringing me hope, love, peace, and joy each day. The hope that dawns brings with it a new and sweet life Free from all the worries, troubles, and everyday strife. Love has beckoned my heart, decimating this stone wall Allowing your perfect love in, catching my every fall. My heart is surrounded by peace, that only you could give Putting my mind at ease, making me safe so that I may live. Joy is in abundance, putting a smile in my heart and on my face Happiness is now real, taking me to that 'special' place. From the moment I met you, I knew that you were the perfect one You never tried to win my heart, but in mine, it was already done. You have enveloped my soul, touching it deep at it's very core With all that your amazing love has given me, who could ask for more? Take Me Far Away Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems This world we know is so full of hate My heart's been broken and now it's too late The shattered mirrors cast reflections of our fate There are good and there are bad, so where do we rate? Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems This world is drowning and it cannot breathe We ask for love, then fervently ask it to leave Tis the darkest of thoughts to which we cleave Do we not wear our hearts' upon our sleeve? Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems Undulating clouds circle my head, black as my soul Taking all hope, casting it within this cavernous hole My peace and joy, happiness and love you stole Eternally these indiscretions have taken their toll. Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems My hearts been ripped apart, torn in two, forever bleeding The doubts and fears of a restful life are always breeding Contempt and hatred towards the populace, exceeding The love once felt for them, that they were always needing. Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems With all hope lost in this bottomless sea, I've let me down As well as those that can see the pain and the suffering all around Wishing to lay myself, fettered and torn, wrapped in a gown Into a shallow grave, one made for me, in my own tears I'll drown. Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems How can I see myself through all this pain? You've taken my mind and only for your gain Why can I not reach inside, find strength not to go through it again? Tears have flowed from my eyes, rivers of blood I rain. Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems All this hell you put me through, I just have to sit and wonder Was my love ever enough to heal your heart? You only called down the thunder You see only with your mortal eyes, now our lives have been torn asunder Now it's time for us to part, forgetting this, dead above the ears, blunder. Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems Even though our lives have severed and no longer see you here I've entered into this new life, seen the best and the worst without fear Now it is a new voice, that comes from within, one thought lost, now I hear Eyes reflecting from within, it is my very soul to which I sit and peer. Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems Love has reached into this soul, caressing her and leaving her aching Wanting more and more, reaching back softening this heart without it breaking The inside cries out for for a love that binds, perfection in the making Holding each other through all the many storms, I'm here for the taking. Take me far away to a land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems Your love has blown into me, filled me, and made me your very own No longer will this heart be hardened, as if made of a diamond's stone My spirit soaring high above the clouds, through you this spirit's grown Always I'm an open book for you, flipping the pages, everything known. Taking me far away to that land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems. The colours of this life, more vibrant and true, a great gift it be You and me melded, encompassing one another as two segments of a tree A union with roots going deep, solidifying each other so never to flee Branches extended, reaching the heavens, yet always overlooking the sea. Taking me far away to that land of dreams Where everything we know is not as it seems. We've been called upon by the winds of change with all of it's allure To spread this song of hope, faith, joy, and happiness to endure For all the rest of time that people could love, revealing the obscure Making seen that there is devotion true and grand, making all secure. You've taken me to this far away land of dreams Where all that we see is exactly as it should be, just as it seems. Ne'er To Part Love has reached with an outstretched hand Grasping my heart by both sides, holding me fast Pulling those strings, melting my heart Knowing there is no love greater in all the land. Time and time again you've carried me on angels wings This love you have so true, always there for me and I for you Spending hours and hours talking from one soul to another Your voice, entrancing me, I know this be how an angel sings. Now that I've heard you and seen you in this life Felt your love run through me, feeling your every breath Your heart beating next to mine, in unison we meld Banishing all the worries and thoughts of everyday strife. Our love, it never waivers, filling us and making us whole Bringing with it a new life, one filled with peace and joy Placing ourselves face to face, vetting each other's hearts Becoming one forever, we feast on each other's soul. Consecrating each other, our souls forever united Ne'er soon shall our love ever part, go separate ways Empty and void my life has been till the day we met All the darkness within, through love has been lighted. I'll take your hand within mine, hold it close to my heart Pledging to you that I'll love you for the rest of our lives I'll never hurt you nor bring you pain, as long as I breathe You'll forever caress this soul, one united, ne'er to part. A Union of Hearts The coldest of winters, the darkest of days Hiding within these walls, curled in a ball The corner I've found has become my home Cowardly quivering, it is my soul that pays. Searching for the light, where there is none Wanting to see that which cannot be seen Begging for a window, a door, or even a crack This pain keeps me locked away, it is done. Any hopes I've had, I have absolutely no more Picking away at the stone wall built all around I see there is no end, the walls too thick and strong Leaning back, spent, not knowing what's in store. The faint sounds of rapping are upon this fort It echoes within the walls, is anyone there? Please let not this be false hope pay'd a visit All this pain, the storms, forever seeking a port. The sounds of knocking have grown louder Hope starts to rise as the stones begin to crumble Is this a monster or the port in which I seek? For the stones this walls built, turning to powder. I could not do this alone, the walls falling apart The first rays of light begin to seep through A joy is filling my heart, someone can see me Could it be the bearer of the key to my heart? This light, I reach forward, grasp with both hands Warmth, freshness, my body uncurling, standing Moving into this new light, bearing gifts of love It circles around me, forming rings, perfect bands. Standing in this reverie, where once hope was lost Arms of another caressed and softened this heart Bringing me out of winter and into the spring of my life Melting the last remnants of the surrounding frost. A doorway has been opened from outside my soul Lessons on how to move from inside these walls To the outside where my playground awaits Need be learnt for this fraction to become whole. My port has come, and knowledge to me he doth imparts Taking my hand and leading me away from this desolation Through the door that true love hath made, two become one Souls bared, unblemished love, this be a union of hearts. Us Even when things seem their darkest and we hide from all that we know, We can tie a ribbon around our hearts decorating it as if it were a bow; But even when it's bound, it can't always be free to do what we want, Sometimes life can be nothing more than an emotional taunt. We try to move past the hurt and the betrayal, seeing only good to come, This is nothing more than a joke, as the truth can only be seen by some. For those that know, the pain is real and sometimes kills the heart, Turning it to stone so that they don't feel they're being torn apart; Once the heart turns to stone, then all you care about will be gone, You'll no longer appreciate even the sunrise seen at dawn. Where once you stood, big hearted and soft as the petals of a rose, Now will be someone as hard as a diamond, dealing out his blows. Lao Tzu once said the softest will overtake the hardest things; My love for you is softer than all things, peace to your heart it brings, If you could but see how much my love could do for you at this time, Instead of sinking into that cavernous hole, it's a mountain you'd begin to climb. No one could know of the pain you're feeling, the guilt is ever there, I turn to God, asking him to ease your pain, is nothing but a wee prayer; God does hear and often answers, even if you don't like what you hear, When you are feeling he's at his furthest from you, that's when he's near. Continue to open your heart to me, there's a promise that I will make, I'll keep it soft and protected till my last days, so that it may never break; I know I can't be there in the most physical of ways right now, But I'll love you forever and support you always ... this is my vow. We have not yet been wed, but in my heart it has already been done, I will not ever leave your side, we'll walk together into that setting sun. Hand in hand for all of eternity, you'll never have to feel alone, Love will heal, and so I give you all the love I have to be shown. Hopefully this love will carry you through the best and the worst, Nothing before us and nothing behind us, each other's first, Our love ever growing, like the swelling of that inner tide, Like a wave overflowing as if the angels themselves cried. A joyous occasion, the eternally blessed union of our hearts, I'll be your bride and that's where our life truly starts. All the pains and sorrow that are now, will only be yesterday, True love will win at the end of the day and our hearts will never stray; Though our hearts are troubled and the day seems to be night, Our love will bring us together, walking always together in the light. Dream Lake Ripples and glitters, the ebb and flow Echoes sounding, waves crash upon the shore Azures, emeralds, and crystals we all know Colours these waves, begging to reveal more. Looking deeper we see our lives within Inspires feelings of peace and sorrow It is there true understandings begin Learned, we always find hope on the 'morrow. Each wave makes it's own mark on life Bears it's own epitaph, and the stories told Through many mistakes, plunders, or strife It's reflections of our soul to which they hold. Each finding their answers, deep contemplation We sit and we stare as always for the duration Possibly in each of these waves find our salvation Shall we remain forever in this deep meditation? In Memoriam Life's cruel twist of fate Can often shatter our heart, Leaving us empty and lonely, 'Cause our loved one must depart. We cannot bring them back to life, And our 'loving' God we feel isn't fair: How much more pain can we endure? We want to give up, why should we care? Our lives seem to be filled with death, Each time isn't the same as the last; For each time, it's as if it's the first; And yet brings memories of death in the past. Then a grieving process soon begins, This familiar emotion we've often felt; Angrily we shout our prayers to God With a passionate outcry as seen only by a Celt. We can't always feel the love he gives; Feeling abandoned, desperation grows, Our hearts ache like never before What's felt in the heart, in our eyes it shows. We never forget the love we've shared, We miss them so very much; Just to hear their voice one last time It's to those memories we'll forever clutch. Still we feel our prayers aren't heard So we turn inside to search our soul This longing and yearning felt so deep within Leaves us with a heart black as coal. We struggle and fight to accept this death We never know which way to turn; The coldness is felt from the inside out, Our heads pounding, and stomach's churn. We face our grief and confront our fears Knowing that we have to move on in this life Even though they aren't here to see and feel They're guidance will help us through our strife. Take up this cross that we have to bare Carry it, knowing one day we'll reunite Our hearts may finally be at peace Moving out of this slumbering night. The love we have for those who've passed Will forever be a light in our lives. Our hearts will fill with aches and pains Even through this, peace arrives. The pain they felt will no longer be And theirs souls will finally rest We see how our lives have changed Having known them we've been blessed. God has seen their hearts and took them home By their tongue and heart, they confess; They smile upon us with hopes of the future There is no more suffering or distress. We thank God for the time we've had And know his wisdom is best Even though we'll miss them dearly Their lives will be in an eternal rest. One day you shall meet each other again And together, will watch over those left behind Starting a new life in the Heavens above Savouring a love that on earth you could never find. So when your heart is weary and feel dead inside You can look upon those memories in admiration And be glad they've left this world for a better one Living their lives eternally in perpetuum celebration. SAY HELLO! Leave me a comment below, or send me a private message or compliment!
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